i know i've eaten a lot...but..

pants used to be worn on the waist. and the sizes used to be 27, 28, 29, 30....nowadays it is worn on the hip.. i'm sure designers know whether the pants they made are to be worn on the waist or on the hip..and the sizes haven't changed. but do the sizes now refer to dimensions of the waist or dimensions of the hip? cos if the same dimensions refer to that of the hip, i doubt anyone fits in the S sizes, and people with asses cant fit into XL sizes. a size 29 from IP zone is loose on my hips and might require a belt, but a size 29 from a pasar malam feels like tights. one is 3+ inches smaller than the other! i shall have to bring soft rulers with me when i go shopping next time..

Spot the Bird!!

Unfortunately I can't provide the answer to this one. u either see it or you don't. but heres a link that could teach you to see it: http://www.netaxs.com/~mhmyers/seeum.html

food galore...

4aug dim sum at Red Star restaurant Chin Swee Road, with lab peoples. good stuff. just unfortunate that they didnt have charsiew cheong fun

7aug karaoke night at NTU alumni at Biopolis. followed by a delicious dinner at 9pm. stingray buffet, yam basket, coffee pork ribs, etc. great food great company

8aug beginning of movie week: Role Models, Slumdog Millionaire, Benjamin Button, Marley and me and Revolutionary Road. we had a good meal at haato too. i liked the curry katsu, the unagi pasta is still as great, my brother loved the mud pie, and the other had a waffle with cookies and cream, but the best ice creams were mine, yuzu sorbet, rock melon and green tea with red bean. we also got the sweet potato one but it wasnt that tasty

9aug national day at grampa's place, pumpkin rice that my mum cooked, and saying the pledge together at the pledge moment, recalling the chinese pledge

10aug discovering PRAWN TOAST yummmm

11aug found out that rum goes well with pepsi and lime

13aug getting reminded of dark times

14aug died trying to weave my way through orchard and squeeze onto a bus home

15aug the epic food trail: kaya toast, ondeh ondeh, goreng pisang, crayfish ipoh hor fun, barley beancurd with ginko, charsiew and prawn cheong fun (they also have mushroom and chicken and scallops O_O), sg day rojak with the perfect mix of sweet sour and spicy, curry puff with extraodinary stuffings like yam, rochor beancurd house, sold out satay, popiah oyster omelette hokkien mee fried kway teow at newton; along the way discovering new (actually old) and cheap places to shop!

dedicated to happy days =)

jun13 Comms parade

met people i didnt expect to meet, died in the heat and enjoyed sitting at the spectators seats in pitch black with his sisters listening to music. probably the last time i looked a least bit slender haha

jun15 or 16.. Seoul garden with sisters!

ate soooo much..and we all came out complaining how we stank of seoul garden. saw iluma and tried some coolio green tea yoghurt or something similar they were giving out in front of iluma.

jun18 cast =_=

got casted after a fall the previous day

jun20 felt so liberated to be at suntec city walking with a cast an umbrella plastic over it and crutches haha..

jun26 cast removed! YES!

jun28 comms ball at St Regis

yay i have one nice picture for good memories of good food, painted mirrors and aching feet. and a very nice uncle who sent me home =)

jul3 monkeying around at holland v with all the sisters! lol

jul4 be the first to see the ndp parade and concert! and the first few to get the funpack! haha i feel so happy that i swapped mine with someone so i got my colour!

jul10 birthday buffet!

Ellenborough Market at Merchant Court Swissotel. CRABBY buffet on a seat facing Clarke quay. pretty pretty place..but i was too busy eating and the camera just did not agree with my crab filled fingers haha i remember someone gulping down oysters like there was no tomorrow (and ended up feeling shitty the next day), i remember a durian mousse which cannot be described for fear that no one will eat it. i remember yam ice cream, and so many other desserts. i remember staying away from risotto. i remember the delicious and huge chili crab which was the best lol

jul11 the only saturday where gerald had excuse from ndp rehearsal

i remember an illegal dinner haha which was meant to be quick cos we wanted to go see the night festival. we took advantage of the free entry to national museum which incidentally i've never stepped in before. and quite cool. old shutters, glass display, love not war cannons, and a rather eerie wayang and movies exhibit. and it poured and poured and we decided the pyrotechnics were too late and probably werent going to happen in this rain, and it took a long time for us both tired people to go home.

jul12 ice age dawn of the dinosaurs with 2 little dinosaurs haha! after which we entertained them at the library, with bubble tea, and eventually at gerald's house. how fun! dinner for gerald's mum's bday at a restaurant at a void deck which didnt have the a la carte buffet that we were hoping it had, but was a good meal nonetheless.

jul13 strudel house!

jul14 the bday no-surprise cake for gerald's mum.

from the place with a name that is difficult to remember. Rive Gauche. Orange cake. pretty cool.

jul16 Thai express dinner and swensens dessert with the girls that i've known for ages.

jul17 food fair at isetan and taka, harry potter and a surprise bday party

jul18 a cloudy day at Sentosa which almost didnt end up at Sentosa. sigh why no sun???

jul19 a nice gathering of 3 people. chatting randomly and enjoying wearing skirts.. plus ice cream at island creamery! =D=D

jul23 sick =S then later migraine. =S

jul29 kuishin bo buffet where i got so stuffed i had to regulate breathing to prevent puking haha.. first time i see marina barrage also. was so sunny and nice! then off to labrador park for fishing! and then dinner with choir girls =)

jul30 the grossest day of animal training.

aug1 first time eating at new york new york and getting a birthday discount although it was supposedly invalid. plus bday present! that big cute bowl-cup. also the day i realised i could borrow from esplanade library and borrow 200 music sheets in 2 books! suddenly feel like i'm productive!

aug2 NAC Exxonmobil Concert in the Park

picnic with sweet sweet peaches, kaya toast and ham sandwiches. plus budak pantai! haha i love the pedra blanca song hehehe =P and the cutest most balloon pooh bear!

if i had to go back tomorrow,

i shall be very very reluctant.

Summer

summer is a good time. it is the excuse for frens to meet up. old frens from no matter how long ago. For if there is no summer holiday and everyone is boringly in singapore all the time, then there will be no special reason to meet up. somehow there must (almost) always be a reason before one can be encouraged to attend a meet up. i wonder how long it'll take for us to get bored of chatting about the past.. maybe never..

有时候逃避是唯一的解决方式

我回来，因为不想再感受在别处的一些沉重
原来家里也沉重

still in hibernation. will be back soon.. another 8 weeks.

holidayyy

yayy
my last 3 days has been so great =D
day before yesterday was christmas eve. was supposed to go carolling for CCF at KKH but turned out the Straits Times anyhow say, cannot want to go and sing then just go. then end up we go there already but were told that cannot join them. so become girls morning out. and very early morning indeed. met up with xiumin and yilun and we went from KKH to Novena and then to Orchard where xiumz and i got yilun famous amos to help her feel better after an awfully screwed up morning. shopped around chatted a bit, we lingered at Topshop for a while to try random clothes, while i got more excited by the extremely tall shoes - stilletto heels plus platformed fronts. hehehe explored the rest of isetan, went to zara walk walk yadayada. Xiumz and I had a good lunch at far east plaza, and wanted to get minute maid limeade but found the price had risen from $1.30 to $2.30 =( time passed quickly and I soon left for home.

lingered, waited, felt like maybe i should have spent the time doing a bit of my essay but i didnt know if i was going to have that much time..in the end i napped away the time until i was called to go downstairs =) got picked up to go geralds place on his way back after booking out, passed gerard his big pack of christmas presents, then to geralds house.

i was amazed by the spread of food. maybe its just because i never had a christmas dinner. turkey stuffed with rice, smoked salmon (omg it was great), ham, sausages, salad, mashed potatoes.. all we lacked was a fireplace. but in singapore so hot if got fireplace we'll all melt in heat. then dessert! really nice pineapple tarts and very good log cake. so christmassy. went over to james place and got so immersed in christmas spirit, with carolling and all. so fun =)
finally headed home to realise i forgot to buy breakfast lol

yesterday morning wake up, wash hair, had a bowl of oatmeals (which was supposed to be filling..) then left to meet up with gerald's family for christmas service. so happening everybody come. like new year like that everyone look beautiful. and i didnt feel out of place wearing my santa claus hat. (lol after coming back from london go out always feel like bringing some head gear..) everyone seem to know everyone, james' brother kept nodding off, vania made nice brownies-in-a-cup, lol and i got hungry in the middle of service hehe..

lunch was at maxwell food centre, i think i passed it so many times but never knew whats it called. and here's when i start ticking off good food that i've intended to have ever since coming back to singapore. we had what we used to call 'michael jackson' back then in the rj canteen - soya bean milk plus grass jelly. gerald got his char kway teow which i stole a bit of, and i got my fishball meepok which i've been ranting about for a while.. somehow i feel like i could get better fishball meepok at toh yi =S but its okay. nowadays good fishballs make me very happy already. we took a walk along one of the roads behind chinatown area, gerald got a really really nice egg tart from this very old stall, and we went looking for this dessert shop that has been featured in quite a few food shows. we finally found it after taking pictures with very cute forever friends bears at chinatown point. 记得吃. somehow despite its simple name i have trouble remembering it. i ordered a 鸳鸯 which has sesame paste and almond cream mixed together, and i added some 汤圆 to it. yay for 芝麻汤圆, and got 2 more 花生汤圆 for gerald. so since i ordered warm dessert, he ordered a cold one, 蛋白马蹄炖西米露 which was coolly nice =) feeling so happily full after having so much food, we walked a bit more to help digestion, and took a bus back to his place.

along the way we stopped at novena square to borrow some dvds to watch, bought breakfast at mama bakery (which according to gerald, has brilliant chocolate bread - i bought and tried, its really nice =) met up with his mum and lil sis originally intending to buy some japanese goodies, but didnt really get anything. had dinner at his house, although it was leftovers from yesterday it was still a delicious meal. [though unfortunately i'm not a fan of pumpkin soup...]

gerald and i then left to meet james and sara and we all headed to cafe del mar. very interesting concept, with daybeds and gabbanas. except those have minimum spending. if dun wanna spend too much, can choose a normal table which will be indoors, or if you want to be in the outdoors on the beach, just grab the benches =) they look like suntanning benches, really suits the beach. the music is kinda weird though (i like their website music more). we had chicken wings, which was really good on its own. and we had nachos which was a generous serving. gerald said i should try a martini so we got a lychee martini, james and sara got margerita, and we also further ordered this thingy that was very cold (lots of ice) and tasted nicely sweet: it had baileys =D it was a cooling night, with very light drizzle so we had to move in from our benches to the tables, but it was a nice stroll along the beach nonetheless.

this morning woke up at 844am, wanting more sleep, so slept a bit more until about 10.. nice cool morning. went to meet gerald and his mum at isetan scotts for the anniversary sale. i didnt know this is a yearly affair until now. spent more than i really should, and took up a lot of time. tried to find the 5 dollars huge can of popcorn at the market in the basement of paragon but i guess it got snatched up. had lunch at this place called 华艺面点小吃, where I had 酸辣汤面， geralds's mum had 榨菜鸡丝面, gerald had 牛肉面, and we also had some sides -小笼包 and 锅贴. good northern china food =) went over the geralds to watch music and lyrics, which was a nice movie. and then went for dinner at serangoon gardens. gerald calls this place one of our national treasures, and while eating here i was also wishing they could come up with a chompchomp clone in london. maybe if they did the rest of the london eateries will have such terrible business they'll close down. lol we ordered a lot of good food!! sambal stingray, satay, sambal potato leaves =D gerald was in the mood for mee goreng as well. there was so much spice we had to get 2 big drinks lol. 1 watermelon juice and 1 grass jelly. and i was sooo full after that. then they had this little corner upstairs of this row of shophouses: nice dessert place called dessert bowl: 一碗甜品, and they had brilliant desserts as well, except i have absolutely no space in my tummy for them and got more engrossed in herworld magazine and mayday concert on dvd as my brain slowly shut down. so ends my happy happy day, i see more to come! =)

Sunset at 330pm

it gets dark so early here..

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cos the river runs
and the river hides
out to the ocean
and under the sky

i promise you
the answer will come
hold on to patience
and watch for the signs
everything in its time

I think i've been too protected for too long.

holidayyy!

yay today is the first day that feels like a holiday, a productive happy day
gerald and i decided to go walk treetop walk cos i've never been there and we started from macritchie entrance (since its near his house and he has trouble waking up ;). it was a 4.4km walk till the treetop walk itself and another long long walk after that. the forest was not too exciting, probably cos i only notice 2 things: the road i'm walking (to protect my ankle) and the rusting on the leaves. there were a number of joggers on that path and many enthu healthy seniors who also came out for a morning walk/jog/briskwalk. made me wonder if i'll have enough energy to come walk this long trail again when i grow old.. there were a buncha macaques in the trees near the Terap Hut and they looked pretty happy playing around making a lot of leaf rustling sounds. i'm happy they have learnt not to pounce on bags expecting to steal food.

when we reached the ranger station we saw a group of ppl and a minister walking out of the ranger station. didnt know what they were there for but didnt look like it was a very official kind of thing that requires a lot of security. somehow we assumed they were going to walk treetop walk and followed behind them for a while, before realising we werent supposed to be walking along a fence that seems to be keeping ppl away from a nuclear missile storage building. turned back to the ranger station, decided to empty our shoes of sand, turned to the right path and walked on. guess who i met! =D hehe truly 不约而同 =D we continued to the treetop walk where we met a family with 3 high kids. the parents decided to let us 4 go ahead first and we had to move in single file on the suspension bridge.

the bridge was pretty short. it was hot and the creatures were mostly hiding in the shade. you could hear some bird calls but they were from quite far away and there were some bugs and butterflies and a few swallow/swifts (those small birds with the cross tail that I see a lot at my forest too) but otherwise nothing much, which was quite sad.. but we were taking pictures anyway to show us being 60m from the ground. we were stopping traffic and the kids behind seem to be getting impatient haha.. after the suspension bridge it was some flights of stairs up and some flights of stairs up until you come to a + junction before reaching back at the ranger's house. it was a wide orange clay path which well-like structures dotted and irregular intervals along the path and that was where we parted ways with our fellow pair. they had come in from venus drive at upp thomson (the shortest way in) and were going back to macritchie. so they walked our path back, while we decided to turn right and walk rifle range trail which ends up at king albert park.

i think rifle range trail is probably one of the nicer trails to walk. u cant find a trail that is SO WIDE it looks like a dried up river and this trail actually has a stream passing through it! ok i exaggerate. its a big drain. but isnt it nice to hear some water on a hot day, water flowing down some slope with the loud gushing sound. we walked past some fences protected by rolled up wires with razor blades. i dun rmb the name even though gerald said so many times. its supposed to be very powerful protection for very powerful buildings. and at the end of the trail we reached a building owned by ST engineering and we thought we had some 3km left to walk. So we walked. and walked. and minivans and trucks passed us but they were going towards ST engine. Then we heard a lorry coming from behind us, we turned to stare at it for a while wondering if we should hitch a ride. But we turned around and continued walking.. the lorry passed us.. and stopped right ahead of us! And the driver offered us a ride out to bukit timah road! Yay! It is so cool to ride on the back of a lorry. It is windy and happy =) and we sped past an ammunition command, BKE, some winding road, the gun club… I think we would have melted in sweat if we really walked all the way out. they dropped us at king albert park where we had an ice cream to cool down, snapped pictures while standing in the middle of the Malaysian railway track, ran across the railway bridge across bukit timah road (ok I ran, because it was more exciting.. if a train is going to come u dun wanna be stuck on the bridge! He didn’t.) (it was damn fun!) and took a bus back to bishan intending to have lunch there. then we saw our companion pair again! While we were in 157 we saw them walking out of macritchie going to cross the road to get to their lunch destination. I think she wanted island creamery and wasn’t willing to consider alternatives and have lunch with us =P haha!

Lunch was at an affordable thai restaurant at Clover Way which is just inside Jalan Pemimpin which is opposite RJ. They had nice green curry and nice tapioca dessert. And I said hi to a teacher. We were supposed to go cycling after lunch. but post lunch syndrome set in and we were both too tired. We fixed half our 1000pc puzzle and felt super accomplished =) then dinner then dance class where I coped nice mocha from dance frens and one of them bought me celery soy milk from mr bean. Which is quite interesting and not too bad and very healthy haha

So ends a happy day..i’m supposed to have more inspiration to mix music but I dun hmph

我总是教自己， 没人陪、一个人，也不能失去安全感
但成功做到后，我会不会变得内向，而开始厌倦人群？

最讨厌 就是听到别人说别人的坏话
最讨厌 就是做事草率，不尽全力
最讨厌 说的话没人听，听了但没记住
是我太挑剔了吗？

曾经的我，做事不求任何人的同意
现在，我只想得到一些肯定

一个礼拜 就这样一天一天过去了
一个月 就这样一个礼拜一个礼拜过去了
一年 就这样一个月一个月过去了
时间流逝的那么快
而我似乎还留在原地

感觉好像让身边的人失望了
可是这次我很清楚，我已尽我所能
之后命运要让我走怎样的路
已不在我能掌控的范围之内
或许最失望的，还是我自己