my profs.

i keep complaining that i am having trouble having to be in the lab and revising lectures. but then there are many doctors in my lab who have to be in the lab and who have to worry about getting biopsies and who have to worry about clinic duties, and some days have to be set aside as biopsy days and some days are not lab productive cos there are clinics to go for and some days are plain tired because of long hours the day before. and then there are profs who run a lab think about experiments organise a course or a degree and prepare lectures. it must be such a tough job, maybe i should complain less when a lecture isnt as great as i had hoped, when my lecturer seems sleepy in my lecture.. and i really respect the profs who come into lecture everyday with so much energy, who will try to make things accessible for you, who will make time to talk to you to see how you are doing..

and today i was reading about innate immunity in HIV and I was feeling quite sorry for my prof. cos here was a nature paper where this other lab took a stab and it was the right stab - they looked in DCs, while my prof had looked at macrophages (since HIV can infect mp) and it was a wrong stab, sigh..

and then i remembered a talk that Paul Bieniasz gave us when I was at Rockefeller, and i remembered how he always seemed to be investigating random disjointed things about viruses, so that maybe he can make one nice finding and let the other people do the rest of the job while he moved on to something else. and i wonder if it is perhaps better to do that - where maybe the only similarity in the projects in your lab is the technique you use and have optimised, but the nature and subject of the project is quite different. because the lab i was in at Rockefeller does that too..

cereal prawns

adapted from my wok life.

in case I cant find it

marinate prawns with sesame oil and light soy sauce and pepper. in the fridge 10 mins.

cube half a red pepper, keep some of the red pepper seeds.

2 mixes: (A) oat cereals + sugar (B) mum's seasoning, bit of chili powder, bit of curry powder

1. deep fry prawns in hot oil. [with shell on, maybe try without shell but coat with egg+corn starch?] make sure oil is hot. once red on both sides, pick up and drain off oil

2. remove most of the oil, leave just a weeny bit. melt a knob of butter. add chopped garlic then red peppers then mix B. stir for a while.

3. then mix A and the previously fried prawns, stir around to help oats and prawns mix. hope it smells nice. if not enough nice smell, add more butter =D

yay delicious dinner enjoyed by myself.

random reminders

so i was watching Nickhun and Victoria buying stuff for their new house

and i remember shopping at the humongous supermarket in Cornell

and i remember that when i see something i like and think is nice but subsequently decide not to buy, he will either convince me to buy or get it for me.

凌晨两点半

如果我会开车，当心情不快时，想去一个没有人找得到的地方，我会开车到哪里去呢？

so i watch you from a distance..

and i imagine you around

and i wish i don't see you around

晚上的音乐

看沉默的电话
它什么都不说
看电视的画面
它无声的闪动
看街上的行人
跟我擦肩而过
整个世界太冷漠
我没有力气再往前走
看你紧闭的嘴唇
它什么都不说
看你飘忽的眼神
它无情的闪躲
看你和我的回忆
跟我擦肩而过
你的改变太冷漠
我没有勇气大声地说
告诉我
你不是真的离开我
你也不愿这样的夜里
把难过留给我
告诉我
你不是真的离开我
你是要惩罚我的爱让你失去自由
告诉我···

我看起来很好 不需要依靠 请别来打扰

爱在身边围绕 我接收不到

暂时不敢面对心里空虚的一角

可不可以 可不可以 可不可以 不勇敢

能不能停止对爱渴望

可不可以 痛哭一场 风雨过后 会看见曙光

This too shall pass

我坚持这希望