army

either my brother isn't making his situation urgent/serious enough or the army is trying to make my brother a cripple. who will pay if and when that happens?

a tourist in a changing home

a skyline is beautiful not really because it is beautiful in itself, but because it is familiar, a place you once loved

when it has changed, it will make you feel like you're a tourist

until you see it frequently enough to associate it with familiar things

the first time

i actually feel nearly intoxicated

i feel like i know exactly how she had felt.. because for the past day i've been daring myself to do exactly what she did. i didn't do it.. i wonder if i would've regretted if i did

was going to take a panadol, and realised that alcohol and panadol can't go together, especially when i don't know the dose of alcohol i took.

so i have stayed away for a long time and will be away still for a longer time. and i had wanted something to stay constant, just so that when i return something will stay familiar. but nothing will stay the same. and maybe at the end of it all, home will become another environment that i will have to adapt to, a new place like those that i've moved to and moved from over these years (and the years that will come)

熟悉的人，熟悉的环境，过了多久时间才会变成完全陌生...

sometimes i wish i have just one 'home', and the rest of the world can just be holiday/vacation/getaway spots

I want you to know

you couldn't have loved me better..

even I didnt recognise it. it was just PMS.

today's message says...

My soul needs nourishment and really wants the freedom to sing and dance and love.

I think I've had enough of this city. Even though there are still many things I haven't done here, maybe I'm just really tired from the things I'm doing here. It is not over yet though, there's still this final week of experiments and poster preparation. And there are thank you notes to be written.

Staying in the US is unhealthy. I eat too much take out food that costs at least $5 usually up to $7. Instead of having cookies I have pretzels and cereal. I don't walk enough (although this is most probably due to the weather) and I think what bothers me most is that it really burns a hole in my pocket.

I wish I could enjoy what I'm doing more.

you are awesome

i just want u to know that no matter what happens

dun forget life has miracles

we are a miracle

and dun waste ur effort in self-pity or worry

just focus every ounce u have

every laksa-induced calorie

into doing any experiments well

and doing them to the best

u are only as lousy as u think u are