i feel like i know exactly how she had felt.. because for the past day i've been daring myself to do exactly what she did. i didn't do it.. i wonder if i would've regretted if i did
was going to take a panadol, and realised that alcohol and panadol can't go together, especially when i don't know the dose of alcohol i took.
so i have stayed away for a long time and will be away still for a longer time. and i had wanted something to stay constant, just so that when i return something will stay familiar. but nothing will stay the same. and maybe at the end of it all, home will become another environment that i will have to adapt to, a new place like those that i've moved to and moved from over these years (and the years that will come)
熟悉的人，熟悉的环境，过了多久时间才会变成完全陌生...
sometimes i wish i have just one 'home', and the rest of the world can just be holiday/vacation/getaway spots
