so significant!

It gives me a strange kind of happiness to see that Singapore time is given when Elsevier ScienceDirect (where you can read lots of papers online) goes down.



ok but i want to read the paper argh

Revelations

So I will cast her on a bed of suffering, and I will make those who commit adultery with her suffer intensely, unless they repent of her ways. I will strike her children dead.

every day where my computer starts up without problems is a day to give thanks.

every day where my results look acceptable is a day to give thanks.

every time I don't get constipation is a time to give thanks. omg.

if only everything had simple answers.

Why do people do good?

I'm getting increasingly irritated by Immunology department's stinginess with marks. Thanks for the nice comments, I just couldn't reconcile the comments with the marks.

discovered

3 songs today written for Emily haha

1 by 莫文蔚

1 by Lady Antebellum

1 by Francesca Batistelli

lol

gah

some people can easily choose between going out/chilling with friends and work.. so envious.
i have trouble choosing between family and work. i think i even have trouble choosing between myself and work.

beer is the bane of my life

i stay in a house with no guys. so why did i find crushed cans of carlsberg stuffed into my toilet minibin, and cans of fosters and carlsberg taking up space in my fridge?

Cornwall

where the oceans are emotional

and many seagulls are disciples of Jonathan Livingston Seagull - experts at their crafts

I really wished you were there. because I thought you would have absolutely loved the serenity there.

On this day of your life, we believe God wants you to know ... that you learn what you do.
If you worry a lot, then day after day you are learning how to worry even better. If you think about doing something a lot, then you are learning how to think about doing. Every moment you are happy, you are learning how to be even happier. Every time you act, you are learning how to take an action even better. What is it that you've been learning today? What is it that you want to learn tomorrow?

when is my graduation ceremony? =/

**

my heart just wants the simplest answer. my brain wants to look at, think about all the possible options and pick and choose.

today someone said, that forgiveness comes from love.

troubled

http://flaneurose.blogspot.com/2011/02/being-lower-income-student-in-elite.html

and all of us reading it try to dissociate ourselves from that being described. =S

social

tonights conversation was full of house parties, clubbing, drinking, sex (incl cyber, in the air, suckers, proper, in others beds) and waking up next to someone you don't know without your pants. i have nothing to add other than laughter. maybe i shouldn't have postponed bible study.

unpardoned

it wasnt weakness to temptation

it was a conscious rationalised decision

the weakness lies in being convinced that he can only be right.

CNY eve dinner

The table was really quiet for a 10 people dinner. I guess maybe having it at a restaurant would have made it less obvious. maybe the strange shopping centre-like CNY songs made the silence all the more obvious. perhaps we were all people who get asked questions during CNY and not ask people questions. so when suddenly no one is asking questions the table is really quiet. maybe we all just didnt know everyone else well.

jinghui was really good with all the cooking, working hard for 5 hours on all the food and really preparing for like 30 people instead of 10 while taking advantage of his good friend kelvin. i think we were all bursting. and we had to tell him to just don't cook the last few dishes because we really didnt think we needed that. i hoped he factored in his travel costs cos waking up early getting to billingsgate and just getting all the food that he was going to cook was quite a feat. there was a MASSIVE bowl of cereal prawns, chili crab that seemed to me a bit overdone, super delicious salmon (omg i have to learn how to make that!), broccoli+mushrooms+scallops, and on top of that a lot of gyoza, wonton, fishballs mushroom meat balls and something they called cod for the steamboat (but really it is not cod)... Oh and I missed out the sambal stingray that i started on before everyone else came haha. certainly lots of surpluses for the year. and now i'm really tired from all that eating, and i kinda wish my mummy gave me ya sui qian to sleep on. haha

missed a video call from my mum =/

re-educate myself

i need to take out my brain, turn it upside down, give it a good shake, shake out the sound of my supervisor's voice talking, shake out what i already know, and re-look at this from my own perspective.

i just want to be lying in your arms now

cold

i'm wearing almost exactly the same clothes as i wore when i went skiing. and i'm still cold.

i am so so so sick of the cold. just thankful theres no rain/snow.

i miss the music that my computer's old brain had.

last kiss

I do remember the swing in your step

dreams

one day we will see what used to be ours from the point of view of an outsider