cold

i'm wearing almost exactly the same clothes as i wore when i went skiing. and i'm still cold.

i am so so so sick of the cold. just thankful theres no rain/snow.

i miss the music that my computer's old brain had.

last kiss

I do remember the swing in your step

dreams

one day we will see what used to be ours from the point of view of an outsider

why i look like i'm overworked.

I am not free on Weds and Thurs and possibly Fri evenings. Please don't plan anything on these evenings for me. I should do this somewhere where ppl actually look.

curious thing to see in Czech

search Kutna Hora in google images: chandeliers made from bones! i wonder if i would feel like the place is filled with ghosts watching..

alpha course

even if i understand and have my questions answered, will i be able to believe in it and embrace it, or will i just find myself willing to subscribe to the way of living but not the entire belief?

best piece of advice for a scientist

On this day of your life, Xin Zi, we believe God wants you to know that... when what you are doing is not working, do something else.

Anything else. You'll only get the same results if you do what you have always done.

never grow up

the kind of dad, mum, brother, sister, son, daughter, friend that you are says more about you than your work does. so why do we put so much effort into being the best in studies/work and not so much effort into trying to be a good dad/mum/brother/sister/son/daughter/friend? is it because, maybe, it is easier to be good in your work than to be a good person? or are we just not putting enough effort on the latter?

as part of a complete kitchen education, we have to learn how to cook baby food:

i really wanna try those baby food that come in little glass bottles with a small baby's face on the outside. i told my mum once when we were at NTUC, she said, i thought you would have been awfully sick of it given how much of that i had given you when you were a baby. lol

no time

by the time i'm done with lab work, cooked, cleaned, showered, i'm too tired to study. this sucks.

out-of-place

like a red english telephone booth in the middle of a shopping mall in johor

i realise that i had forgotten how irritating london rain is

i am unable to get used to waking up in dark red skies instead of blindingly bright white skies

i still find it awkward to leave school at 5pm because i feel like i'm going home at 9pm

at 4pm i look out the window and think it must be 730pm

my jacket feels like it is too short, or i must have grown taller..

那年夏天我和你躲在那一大片宁静的海

在一个偏僻的石头上，在他们开发那个地方之前

在一个炎热的下午，在树阴下

走过了几个充满岩石的山丘，那灰色拥挤的沙滩，和出乎意料地冰冷的海水

在地的最南方，在白色的沙滩上，那片海闪亮着

my turn

10 hours..ish..

argh

i've just wasted 2 hours of me and my mum's sleep time.

revelation

the world was a beautiful place

until humans came along

some continue to make it an ugly one

while others attempt to make it better

Crackers 5 days too late and a day too early

My christmas crackers must have been delayed by the terrible snowstorms in Europe. The original plan was to stick it on/below the christmas tree that my aunt always used to put up and get the kids to pick one out for themselves, crack them, and exchange the gifts in them. But it didn't come in time, and there was no christmas tree, and I was pretty much voiceless on Christmas Day.

It came in the mail 2 days ago, all deformed but not broken. My brothers, my mum and I all had our go at attempting to open the crackers so they will crack properly. And figuring out what was the sense in the riddles found in each cracker. There were those that said, Q: What do you call an underground train full of professors? A: A tube of smarties. or Q: What do you call someone who makes clothes for rabbits? A: Hairdresser (Hare-dresser). and we couldn't figure out what was so funny/smart about "what do you call a boomerang that doesn't come back? a stick." and couldn't understand "what do you give someone who has everything? antibiotics." and there were little games that came in the crackers, and a magic trick I couldn't figure out how to perform. It was a nice afternoon nonetheless, so thanks lw for that =)

Last night was probably one of the quietest countdowns I've ever had. We didn't miss out on the countdown purely because we could hear the countdowns from other parties upstairs/downstairs. We make such a big fuss about a day that doesn't change anything, just a closing, and a time when we come up with new year resolutions, or hope for a better year. Because a year is never good enough.

Today I am reminded, by its faint echoes, of the bell that tolls on the 1st of every month.

brainwashed

they couldnt recover my C drive
would cost at least 1000 bucks to recover it
that's 7 years of my life.

23/01/11 on hindsight, maybe thats a good thing. it just might help with the forgetting

Christmas

The sun in London is brilliant, the sun in sg is overbearing
The grey skies in London are dreary, the lightning in sg is spectacular
tonight's the perfect day for wellies..

I'm feeling uninspired, guilty and sick.
What a terrible combination.

Late nights and early mornings make me tired at all the wrong times
When I had alcohol-free grape juice after dinner today, it felt so refreshing.
I'm sorry, commensal bacteria, for stressing you out. I promise I will be nicer to you from now on. Please get back into the right balance and get rid of the strep pyogenes now.

no time..

clubbing is absolutely decadent.
luckily i did it while i was still jet lagged.
luckily i dun need to sing today.

i'm not a dancer

all my life i've been doing my rendition of dances in front of my mum, in front of my window/mirror.. attempting to look graceful, but i never got there (and never will)
the first time i injured myself when i was dancing, i stepped on my own foot and broke my front 2 teeth.
the next time i injured myself when i was dancing, i fractured my 5th metatarsal.
no i'm not a dancer.