翅膀

同样的机场 不同时间
同样的咖啡 不同味觉
同样的我和我都少了一些
看飞机划过天空不见了

用你给我的翅膀飞 我懂这不是伤悲
再高都不会累 我们都说好了
用你给我的翅膀飞 我感觉已够安慰
乌云也不再多 我们也不为谁掉眼泪

空气里藏着你的香味
回忆里躲着你的眼泪
最后拥抱的温暖还有一些
我拖着行李往前一只走

看一看回忆 是云朵一朵朵的飘过
若想要回头 就无法翱翔

乌云也不再多 我们也不为谁掉眼泪

Fashion shows

those that tv mobile keep showing from 6pm onwards on channel newsasia and it bores the hell out of me.

i think fashion shows are stupid and impractical. firstly, the models dun look good. its not like they haf the wonderfullest of bods. i mean they look like they came from the parts of africa where they dun have enough food, and were painted white like wat happened to michael jackson. their face look like barbie dolls come alive, or like life sized moving wax figurines. and their legs are like sticks. so skinny that their hips look too big for them. and their torso is too puny too. and wen they wear low cleavage things, it looks quite sad cos its not like they got very much in the middle. they seriously look malnourished. and i think they look so hostile and dao. they could at least smile in their pose. or are they supposed to look damn bu shuang and kiampah in that apparently very nice outfit?.. and the designers design impractical clothes. they are designed to fit tt particular model. meaning it is how small and tight and no normal human will be able to wear that. besides, i dun think tt their designs are very nice either. maybe i just dun haf an eye for design and fashion. too high class for me.

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today is horrible. i feel like my brain has a shortage of blood and my lungs are in some compression machine. and i try to breathe deeply but it makes the pain in the head and the lungs even worse. argh. i wonder wats wrong with me. it feels like my blood vessels have all constricted. but i'm sure i dun haf a heart problem, and i do think tt my heart is pumping well enough. at least it is on normal days other than today.

Autistic kids

are so special. i think i wanna do cip wif autistic kids someday. they get hard to handle sometimes. and things usually go slower and it requires lots of patience to deal with them. they think in absolute logic and are very capable in drawing and putting things in perspective. i wonder wat goes on in an autistic child and how he thinks through things. do all autistic children think similarly? do they find being autistic an illness? how does an autistic child feel when being treated like a normal human in human circumstances? wat is it that makes it so hard for an autistic child to be in the same environment as a normal child?

原来

街灯绊住我眼前下一步
拉长的影子嘲弄的回顾
电话亭里留着你留话
一句话掉一滴泪
看来今晚的我很难入睡

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺得跟着我难分难离

原来最寂寞的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己

我也会不留一点痕迹..

i want to thank my parents. for sponsoring printer ink tanks. we use it like drinking water =X

有时候...

有时候，当有人说要做某样东西，却没做到，你会觉得，他只是口头说说罢了，没有诚心的。有时候，有人深深相信，不管做什么，只要定下心一定要做，再忙也一定能找出时间做。但有时候，事情不在自己的掌控之中，怎样都做不成，也只好让机会一次又一次的擦肩而过，心中却是一次一次的一阵一阵的酸。这叫做“心有余而力不足”吗？总是觉得那句话用太多了，已经不能表现那种感情了。

有时候，在生活的喧嚣，时间流逝的太快，来不及整理好自己的心情，直到发现我们已渐渐的失去自我。在这快速的生活里，人们为了应付社会种种的要求，早晚奔波，每个人的生活都大同小异，性格是否也会变得大同小异？能像陈子谦（Royston Tan) 那样，勇敢走出自己的道路，闯出自己的天空的人，已寥寥无几。许多年小时的志愿，都留在年小时的岁月。要挽回，却得费那么多精力，赶着追上时间的我们，有足够剩余的精力吗？

有时候，生活中会有那么一些时候，心中就只有快乐，也不知这莫名的快乐从何处来。但快乐总是短暂的，而快乐时，心中深知，快乐后，紧接着的一定是一段心情消沉的日子。消沉的日子，也总是特别久...

happy day

very happy day. must be cos i started out laffing a lot and a lot. hahahaha.. for known and unknown reasons, today is a very happy day. this means i can start adding stress on myself.. its finding me anyway. tired nite. yawn.. shoot. cant slp now. got to do work..=(

thanks to all who stayed to finish up the dance prac! street has a long way to go =)

ever felt like u were walking on a very tight rope and u can fall anytime?
ever felt like ur brain was some rubber band and u can see the ends breaking away and its about to snap anytime?
ever felt like u're so screwed theres no way life could go on?
gah why must parents take such drastic measures sometimes? when the child goes insane, do u go insane too?
why sometimes parents just dun understand?
why do parents sometimes take steps that makes things worse and dun solve problems?
why do u sometimes feel u haf no whr to explode into?
wth shoulda expected tt

try this!

i think this is very interesting:

wanna know answer can ask me =)

and so i'm 17 years 1 hour and 11 mins old now.
thanks for all the well wishes! even though it didnt start out tt well i'm happy it ended well. just so happened that one of the most stressful days landed on that fateful day of the year. thanks justina for the very sweet note! thanks gerald for the very cute spectabled baby pooh lol =) and thanks all who said/msged/msned me "happy birthday". and thanks ruth for ending it nicely. makes me feel like got yuan2 man3 jie2 shu4. =) whoah. another year of yong3 gan3. must jia you

bus bomb

wahh..... today wait 20 mins and 157 still dun wanna come..thot that only happens for 970..
so hopped onto 156 cos i was going to fall asleep liao and needed to sit/lie down. woke up just in time to get off (woke up twice in between thinking i had missed my stop.. but i should not forget that 156 takes the longest routes to get to places.) but due to disturbed sleep of course not enough. then wait like 40 mins for 970 to come. this kind of waiting time can fall into coma and still wun miss bus -_- horrible thing is that after all the waiting, the bus comes FILLED =( so still must stand. and the bus driver like in some kind of rush, overslept or set out too late la, then desperately trying to reach destination on time, speed brake speed brake.. =S and some people just dun know the meaning of sit down so that people at the back can get to the door... theres like empty seats everywhr and they just refuse to sit down. ya la..i know u are some chopstick..but i am like 1 big drumstick how u wan me to get past u... so had to squeeze and rearrange lipids and somehow get thru.. eesh

Xinzi wakes up for lunch at the same time parents walked out for breakfast... my bro asked me to eat his breakfast for lunch cos he din want his breakfast lol soggy mee pok haha

I realised tt in the last session of dance prac i oni covered 2 eights..thats quite pathetic yux. must get them to learn more and if cannot rmb must write steps down.

After an afternoon of suntanning, my S1 bro came to ask me math qn. he said its a very difficult math qn.. and i think he went to ask my dad le then come ask me. and i solved it faster than my dad lol. its not tt difficult la. the qn is 3^(96) - 1 has 2 factors between 700 and 800. What are the 2 factors? the answers are 730 and 728. go solve it very fun =)

N i cannot believe this. france won brazil?!! like wah..wat happened to brazil??!! now no match to see liao. lol nvm la, haha england is out so i happy.. so sadistic..><

i wonder if curiosity kills the ants..

LOL anyway i taking a break from mugging..ok i think not taking a break cos i've yet to start anyway, so i guess i shall make myself start later..eek

so i was bored and didnt want to mug..and went to observe ants.. i've been observing them for like days. they always take the same path, like some ant highway, and then ends of the highways dont lead to food. so i guess ants dun only think about eating..><

but i always love to disrupt the highways. not to long ago i rubbed some metholatum in the middle of their highway, its so funny watching them react to it, like they will all stop around the patch and inspect it, and one brave soul will try to cross the patch. hahhahaa and then after that when the smell wears away they just resume their highway.

today i decided to put a tiny pocket of smashed-peanut-like ant poison..hmm i *think* it is ant poison. so then they all started investigating this new obstruction, some climbing inside, some wandering around outside. for those climbing inside, most just seem to come out and then go back to their highways and i think they tell those ants going in the opposite direction something different but ofcourse i cant hear it LOL..aiya but not many crawled in la. then there were some smarter ants, that decided to turn another direction and find another pathway. hahaha so then a new highway was created lol. aiya i hope whatever the poison is, it will be carried back to the ants' nest and then spread the poison or disease around and kill off all the ants. they are getting highly irritating.

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feeling super mood swingy today. dunno why suddenly dun think i should go skating tml liao. so now tml will be some xian day after exams. how sAd

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wOoT i luv drowning ants =P

做违背良心的事，是不会有好下场的

I'm sure car paint job costs 100 bucks... u talking abt 100 euro? or u talking about toy car? advise from a friend? what makes ur friend more specialised in such tasks than workshop techinicians? come on, stop making up thoughtless lies. this is not something u can easily get out of..

the people from blk 129 12-3*8 at "somewhr in the east of the island" better read my title seriously..

-_-

I think my mum must be feeling quite distressed now... Poorthing June was not a good month for her. Go overseas kena conned here and there, then when my dad not in Singapore, kenna got car scratched cos the other driver misjudged distance.. haii.. my ma very careful liao lorh... hope its passing shade, must quickly 雨过天晴. I think my dad should stay home a little more often?..dunno la.. this overseas trip maybe he shouldnt have gone, he said it was wasted trip anyway

argh..desperately need sugar now..must stay awake to mug econs..>< orange juice!! Jaffajuice, pulpless orange juice= best =)

and tml i going to wake up early early again. to reduce travelling time i shall get my mum to fetch.. and reach school like 3 plus hours before the test lol

and chem and chem and chem!! 3 down 1 to go....ddiiieeesss...XI
Its wat kind of unearthly hour and i can finally go sleep...imagine if i watched soccer..then dun need to sleep le..><

I wan 光良's 为明天!!! wahh took me ages to finally rmb that song's title.. its the 主题曲 of 《孩有明天》which was shown on channel 8 eons ago.. ahhhh..

lalalalalalalala falalalalalalalala

YAY finished math =)

北京游

游了北京回来，觉得好像做了好多善事，也不知是好还是坏。一回来，老爸就说到处给人占了便宜，弟弟又觉得杀价那么恨，像那里的人不用吃不用活…希望我妈妈不要太心疼，做做善事就会得到保佑。本来以为来北京，可以买很多东西，结果都好像不敢买，怕上当骗了钱，旅游团的安排也没给我们多少时间逛逛。走走过后，觉得北京没有所谓的“真货”，都是假的，专卖店，小摊子都一样，给了保证书也没两样。

来了北京，也亲自了解北京人是怎样的。做买卖的，说话都蛮凶的，觉得非常不友善，而且很容易失去耐心，就破口大骂。当他快没耐心时，看出快生气了，我在喜欢也不会要买，免得摊主和妈妈拉拉扯扯的，真是不知该哭还是该笑。北京人说话大声，对服务行业也不好，常会让人觉得粗理粗气，没礼貌，尤其对游客。

不过我们的导游就比较好，至少给我的感觉是他很老实。而且虽然全程大多都再说关于历史的事，不过他能说得我们听了也觉得津津有味，大家都吸收了不少中国历史的知识。这该算是最大的收获了。

ROX rox!!

today super rox!! yay =D=D

i finally got my PW interview done!! decided its best to just call up organisation since emails dun usually work for them. wahh damn HAPPY..my teacher thot i xiao liao hahhaha

and today last day of camp! like 有喜有悲。 有点舍不得lor. like so fast then over liao.. and the ppl thr and the kids damn nice.. hahaha nvm got more holidays coming up, then i'll come for camp again! things must haf happy ending. S5 item today not bad =D

tml gg beijing wahh must be motivated to do work now..then can enjoy in beijing..